lead a better life

I thought it will be okay really without you.
But it don't seems to be.
I am really dishearted.
Don't worry it will never be you anymore.
I will lead a better life.
Stop appearing in it!
I will be prettier,happier,without you.
Don't worry i will smile brighter,do better on my own.
I don't think you ever know or ever care.
Even if you know you will just avoid it right?
I really hope you never know until the day comes.
I maybe heartbroken now.
But it made me determined to lose you.
Without thinking thrice.
I mean it.
Maybe this is how you made me face up to facts
but i am telling you I will lead a better life.
Though i always thought you are the best of my life.
but now you are the worst.
I don't need to find someone better because everyone else is better.
All your goodness just dust away in seconds in my heart.
How long it was and how long it will be.
It doesn't matter anymore.
Cause i live a life for myself WITHOUT you now.
Treasuring people that i neglected.
This make my life more meaningful.

Useless

I know I am.
It is just a message and i am here over the moon once again.
It is just a message.
Thats all.
What to be excited about?
Okay.
I admit its not over.
Its always there.
BUT
I am doing my best.

Smurf VS Johnny English Reborn

Okay which is better?

What do you all think?

Personally i like Johnny English Reborn better.

Eventhough i didn't like Johnny English but Reborn is much better:)

Why i thought Smurf was not that good?

It was good!!LOL..

but Reborn is better...

I am a smuf fan but the movie reduces my imagination for Smurfs...

Not that i don't facinate about them in my world but it just restrict me and this movie is too "classic".

Like a fairy tale,you need a "happliy ever after"...

Too children for me...

Reborn is funnier...no hilarious...

But a little silly...

I admit i like lame jokes...

take a look and decide which to watch:)

I smuf you<3

Korea!!

Okay people.... i am now working hard towards my goal.South Korea... LOL... i know it sounds that i am insane...
i am working hard as my main exams are coming soon...after that during my break i will start planning for my holiday trip...
Most probably going with the same people on my taiwan trip(if u added me in fb u can take a look).
Okay i know it sounds a little nuts that i am saying this cause i am only going in April... most prob... and people still not 100% confirmed.
Who cares?! lol i am just being excited and all even if we cannot go then talk about it another time lol...just feel high about it all of a sudden:)
I place that holiday in april cause i need to save...
and to motivate myself to work hard!
I need some time so yup... thats it hahahahahahhaha:)
Please feedback to me about korea:) Thanks!

Is it me thinking too much?

I just wanna be simple.
Really simple.
But being simple may not be a good choice for me.
Being simple with the right ppl is nice! Is comfortable,am i asking for too much?
Being simple,straightforward to people that you trust is the only thing i wanna do.
I don't wanna wear a mask.
Things nvr been so difficult for me.
I really feel like struggling...
I don't know how to breathe.
or i don't have a place to breathe.
I just like to be me.
But the real me is fading,or hiding away?
Avoidance?
Unrealistic?
Really confusing.
Maybe i need to find myself back first?
Give me sometime!! i will be good:)

Holiday!!:)

Holiday is here:)
Finally!!
Recently preparing for my basic theory test and a little nervous...
but its okay:) hahahahhaha
all of a sudden i feel i need to rearrang my life and the people around me...
Sometimes friends change and new friends comes in, when new friends comes in, u doubt whether they are real or not.
Sometimes those really close or use to be close to u.
I dont dare to let out my personal secrets or even the simpiest idea of talking to unimportant ppl.i know that may not be good, but my environment makes me feel uncomfortable and unhappy.
i know i have to cheer up but it really makes me confused...
sometimes i know i have to adapt but i am learning, i mean it i can't differenciate those good and those bad... or should i say true to me...
that is why i feel or choose to be in my "own world".
This does not mean that there is no good thinks in my life!!
i still have a group of ppl caring and loving me. Whether they care drectly or indirectly:)
Bye bye ppl i am so gonna enjoy my holiday!!:)Enjoy urs too:)

Mid Semester Test!!

My Mid Semester is starting soon:(
I hate test and exams...
I get nervous and i am LAZY...
But that's my job...
Projects piling,exams coming...so many things on hand...
A little stressed out but still manageble...
I need to be motivated to study!! i am gonna change my laptop wall paper to STUDY!!
So that it screams at me every single day at me so that i study hard for mid sem.
Then FREEDOM here i come...hhahahahhahahahahhaa...
Off to study!!To all those having exams, study hard!!And all the best!!